Hello April~
Helloooooooooo birth month!!
🪼⋆｡𖦹° Actually today’s my birthday ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･🫧
I’m not going to attempt to romanticize April because I mean, well you can, cause it is Spring and there’s a ton of things to romanticize about it but I’m not going to stress myself with all that right now lol. I’m also going to aim to not give myself an insane goal list for my birth month — for once. I’m learning to slow down, not always be on, as weird as it feels since most things I do and think have to do with creating content. Since losing the original hazearella IG that held a lot of my credibility, I’ve gone through a shift. I’m not really her anymore. I do miss taking product shots, and reviewing everything that I come across. I do miss searching for cute products and my new favorites but I’m letting that stuff come to me on its own time now and not spending so much time stressing over it. Even though it was my favorite kind of stress.
My goal for April is gentle discipline.
This month started off rough with my anemia coming up with yet another symptom of struggle — something called glossitis that caused both sides of my tongue to feel like it was cut by dozen’s of blades and stung every time I ate, drank or even spoke.
Anemia-induced tongue pain, known as glossitis, causes a swollen, inflamed, and often pale or smooth tongue due to iron or vitamin B12 deficiencies. This condition reduces oxygen flow to the tongue, resulting in tenderness, burning sensations, and difficulty eating or speaking.
Which is crazy because just a year ago I suffered from what I thought was just another burst of COVID. I had a 3 day migraine, one of the worst ones I’ve ever had. I couldn’t sleep though being bedridden because my entire body beyond ached. I couldn’t eat and when I’d try, I’d end up throwing up. I couldn’t even walk to the bathroom because of my body aches to the point I’d have to crawl. I don’t take naps, I don’t believe in it, so my daughter asked me to go to the hospital because something was off. She had to help me to the car because I couldn’t even walk let alone straight. I ended up being admitted for 3 days, having a ton of tests run on me and was in serious need of a transfusion.
Since then I’ve had to take a high dose iron supplement every other day. I suppose every other day was magically not cutting it anymore and I had to switch it to daily. Since doing so + taking B12 along with it, my tongue has shown some signs of repair. However small. I’ll take it. Because this pain is fuckin nuts.
If I don’t slow down, life will always find a way to make me. That’s for sure. And that’s been an ongoing observation of mine.
I have a little bit of quiet time to myself today so this post is going to be a bit shorter than usual — I really want to spend this time designing and prepping posts for the week, if I can. Debating on putting some gaming time in but also… I can game at any time. I can’t work when everyone is home and making a mess of everything.